Long before my 5-year work permit in Germany expired, I had it nullified. Instead, I was given a permanent Residence Permit. Because what should have been a short assignment turned into a lifelong commitment, when I married a local. I am convinced that had I stayed single until now, I would have already gone back to Manila.

I have always been moody but it has gotten worse since I moved here. And, for the past weeks, I have not been myself. Drama galore whenever I talk to J. At the rate I am going, I will soon win the Oscars.

5 more years and I am ready to call it quits. If not, I swear, the real AnP will forever be gone. I am slowly morphing into someone I do not recognize anymore. I have stopped caring about a lot of things and my sunny side is being eclipsed by my face that seems to be more ready to give a scowl than a smile.

Staying may be good for my health and my bank, but it is not good for my soul.